Chicago, I love you, but you're bringing me down

I love it here but things are hard right now.
I'm belligerent for no reason.
bitchy. picky. hungry.
I'm not sleeping anymore.
I have headaches all the time.

I don't have a job and my savings are dipping below $1000.
my dorm is out of toilet paper.

it's stuff like this that's driving me over the edge.
that, and the fact that I push everyone away
either that or neglect them.

I noticed it first on Friday, at te derby bout
sitting next to this girl who practically drools over me
(I was excited to meet her, too, after Facebook)
and I was just pissed.
seriously pissed. I wanted to smack her
across the face
every time she opened her mouth.

she didn't do anything
neither did dylan
and yet I'm being a bitch


I don't know what I'm doing to myself