hmmm.

today was just an all-around awful day.
i think i'm getting sick, as i can hardly stand. i don't know what it could be, though...i'm just exhausted and in pain all over. i have so much homework to do tonight, too.

all of the kids from jersey, manhattan, philly, connecticut, etc. got weekend releases and are going home. i want to go home so badly i can't even think about it. i can't work on my EE while i'm here; the workload is too intensive and i'll be kicked out/put in detention if i can't keep up. every day of the weekend, we have a trip to a museum and a mandatory event. classes take up all of the sunlight hours and homework takes all of the hours before sunlight returns, and none of the teachers understand that the other teachers are assigning homework, too. it feels just like school did last year, only imagine it during a heat wave with the occasional sticky, humid flash floods.

i miss my friends and my family. i miss my bed. i miss real food and the freedom to choose what i do with my weekend. i'm about to burst into tears right here in the student lab, with the turkish kid Yohai staring at me. it's so much pressure on top of EE and my IWB, neither of which i can even start. i'm so scared.

don't get me wrong, i like it here. i love the people and my classes. i just think something is wrong with me and i don't know what it is.

on the flip side, it makes me happy to see so many posts from you, b. i know your life isn't the best right now, either, but your posts have kept me in the loop at home. i hope that things will slow down for the both of us, or at least that we learn to pick up the pace.

haha on the note, my suitemate katie is the fastest walker i've ever met, and so i now walk insanely fast. you wouldn't believe it; i've already lost an inch off my hips and two off my waist. i don't even recognize myself. i'm all toned and shit from literally running around brooklyn ALL DAY.