wanting someone

lately i've been feeling lonely, something i really haven't felt for a while. the downer days a couple weeks ago really threw me off kilter & tonight is another low. i'm just tired of holding it all in, of being the only person to really love me in the way that i want to be loved. i'm lonely. and i know i'm not going to find someone i want to be with long term on some idiotic site like okcupid, but i'm not really sure where to look other than that, and it has me feeling helpless. people at my school aren't attracted to me. i'm just stuck in a rut i guess. i'm in no rush, god knows i have forever. i just don't want to be alone right now.