i'm trying to convince myself that i'm just procrastinating

but it's so much more.
i'm positive that i've transitioned into the hypothyroid stage of radiation;
i black out almost every time i stand up, i sleep for unhealthy periods of time (i didn't get up until two this afternoon, after going to bed at 11:30), i'm freezing ALL the time, i cant remember things such as where the spoons go in the kitchen and which way is left not to mention school work, ive gained weight despite my insane workout regimen, and i pull out handfuls of hair anytime i touch it.


it is so hard for me to pay attention to the essay i have to write on lord of the flies. i sincerely feel like it would take me until midnight if i were to start right this second.

i'm drifting off to sleeeeeeeep.
ack.