in this moment, i am happy

because dylan is here
because i am in love
because my dorm smells like irish spring and apricots; like dylan
because i have my tattoo
(because said tattoo didn't & doesn't hurt at all)
because my fridge is stocked
because my fan is fixed
because nearly all of my homework is complete
because i got new plugs for $2 yesterday
because tomorrow is monday
because i have no classes on monday
because dylan is asleep next to me with a smile on his face
because i am wearing his shirt
because i love my classes
because macy's has their giant christmas decorations up all down the block
because judgement has left my life
because i have never felt closer to anyone as the boy next to me
because my new roommate moves in in two weeks
because my new roommate is actually a cool person who thinks for some reason that i am a cool person
because next thursday i will see morrissey live in concert
because things are getting easier
because i am living in a community of people who appreciate what i do
because things are not normal with dylan here
because it's good to break the routine every few weeks
because things will return to normal when dylan leaves
because daylight savings time means it's only 3am, not 4
because my job as an art student is to self-actualize
because i will have a job that gives me money when i get back home
because i love my job at solaris
because i will be home in 17 days
because people turn to me when they need help
because i am becoming a better person
because i am being healthy
because i love to ride my bike, and it's still warm enough
because i feel big things coming

because i'm making myself be open to the good things in the world, and i didn't for too long of a time in my life