lovely.

today was quite good. I had some good quality time with jaime and blake, cleaned profusely, and painted 3 new paintings. ive been soul-searching of late, which is something i havent done in a while. i miss my mom, and i want to be there for natalie. things are hard emotionally lately, but not in the way id thought it might be. im worried for my family. i'm conflicted about college, after talking to alex about how much he loves new york. i miss having my mom at home. but I'm reeling in all the free time I have to sleep, to study, to spend time on my makeup. time that i either forgot how to use or was occupying with other things. right now I'm covered in paint and have a terrible headache accompanying the disgusting sinus drainage and raw throat I've had all day, but gitsy is snuggled up warm with me and I can feel sleep starting to pull at me. despite my sickness and my family worries, all is well with soul.