spring break

so far (one day in) my spring break has been lovely. getting through some weird bronchitis/flu thing, I've been eating chicken soup and resting as much as I possibly can. that being said, today I went to the fabric outlet in Pilsen and then went for a bike ride alongside dan, who was jogging. we just talked and walked and had a good night. at 11:50 he asked me for a favor, and I said sure, and he asked me to kiss him. just once, no strings, just so that he'd have his first kiss before turning 20.

I did (should have considered my sickness--I'll feel horrible if he gets sick) & it helped me realize that I don't like him that way. strange how I got to test the waters without having to commit to liking him. & it's good, because the awkward friends-more-than-friends tension I was feeling can go away now. and because I did it for him and not for myself, it helped me put things in perspective. sometimes (& I hate myself for this) I forget that not everything is about me. tonight was good because it was about pretty much everyone but me. it was nice.