today

i've rediscovered backseat goodbye,
one of my all time favorite bands who i had forgotten

i just can't even BEGIN to describe to you that feeling,
it's like i've forgotten this huge part of who i am on the side of the highway,
and then driving by one day, happen upon its carcass and bring it back to life.

i sometimes wonder if others feel the same way i do when listening to music; it's that moment in which i want to sing until my throat literally bursts into flames, want to cry my eyes out, want to laugh as hard as i can. it is as though my whole body goes completely numb with emotion.

it's similar to a panic attack, which i often have, but more positive.

it's at these moments that i feel most creative, most empowered, most confident in who i have come to be.