lexapro

i've been thinking a lot
about how i feel a lot

and i honestly just can't take how weighted down i am.
so once my family saves up some money
and i figure out if i'm still hypothyroid,
i'm going to have to decide whether or not i want to try taking lexapro.

i've talked to my mom about it. she says
it will just make my emotions lighter, that it won't actually change my personality
but i worry that i'll lose the depth of my happy feelings along with the bad.
you know?

so i've got some more thinking to do
but at this point, i'm leaning towards trying it.

i hate to put things into my body that don't naturally occur,
but i really can't keep going on like this.

hummm.
we'll see.