Last night

Last night I told dylan that I didn't want to try to work things out anymore. I had told him sometime in the last 2 weeks or so that I didn't want things to be shitty between us but I realized after lots of self reflection after times when dylan comes into contact with my life, that I'm incredibly unhappy. Like even if I have a positive encounter with him, something in my gut feels disappointed and disgusted. Not angry anymore, not resentful or pointed. Just negative. And I don't need that.